Tuesday, 31 July 2012

Happy Birthday Potter and Rowling~

Almost forget!!
Today is Harry Potter and J.K.Rowling's birthday~~~ yeeeyyyyy XD
Happy Birthday Harry Potter~ Thanks for coming into my life and make it great! I'll never forget you and your story! Love you always~ *Potterheads mode on* >.<
Happy Birthday to J.K.Rowling, the number one author come in my mind. She is so great! Without her, no Harry Potter and I won't even know about magical things like in her books! She's amazing~ love you so Rowling~ keep rockin~XD

Thunder bold right in front of my face..

It's been days ago..but I can't settle down my feelings...
(days ago)
My mom screaming, so I bragging in to her room and find her crying like crazy with my father looked so worried and desperate to beg her to be quiet. Confused, yes. Me too. I keep thinking what might happen. Well, shortly, my mom told me, that my destined(?) man was my big bro. ( me and my big bro isn't really siblings, we're friends who turn out to be siblings and now become lovers(?)) oh please, I got electric shock! How wouldn't??!! Shittt!!! I've never dated anyone before and now you told me that my big bro is my destined man?! What The???!! Oh come on!! I'm still young. I don't even think about marriage! How could?! Damn! I lost words!t
I keep thinking, why?why?why?Why? Why it has to be me? why? I want to fall in love with someone else! not with a man who already fall in love with another woman! What make it worse? that other woman was my big sister TT____TT I don't know what I did wrong in the past, but I can't accept it. Okay my brain's trying to accept but my hearts, my attitude, all of me reject it! How could I have lovers relationship with him??!! he is my bro, for God sake! (at least I think of him that way). But as I saw him, he's trying his best to get closer to me in romantic way, which really makes me depressed T_T Oh God please, help me,what to do??!! now he's calling TT__TT Okay, now he's off... fyuuuhhh TT__TT what to do??? eottoke??! huweee
please someoneee help me out of here :"( sob sob sob

Thursday, 26 July 2012

These Funny 3 Days :)

Okay I'm gonna post all things I've done for these 3 days from Monday until Wednesday ^^
Monday like the other day, I get up, eat something, watch tv, online, chit chat with my older sister who already had a baby :D At night I went to temple and get the first day of soul training to make us understand more about moral and we played so many games. Actually child-games that surprisingly so fun XD. We laugh so hard because of that haha...

The second day, Tuesday, I went to campus to get soft skill training early in the morning, ended up until lunch time, tired and so dead bored -_- And I wear a SKIRT, oh please =__= I don't even know when was the last time I used one -,-" But I love dress yeeeyy \\(^O^)// weird huh? okay skip that part. Nah, I went to my friends rent-house and have a great chit chat with them, and eat :D but not all of them eat, some were fasting. You know fasting? no? okay go google it now. I supposed to get my ass home at least 5 in the evening, but I arrived at 6 -_- so I miss my chance to go to my second day of soul training :( I end up watching tv and online. But my mom said she can't take my sister to her home, so I was taking her home, late in the night with a motorbike LOL. Ah I forgot, there's two strange things happen. First, my bathroom's door locked from inside, but none in there -_- and second, my big bro said he got 2 miscall from me around 3 PM, but when I check my log, I don't see any of dialed call to him from my phone and yeah, it successfully make me chill =_=

And today, Wednesday. I missed my second soft skill training =_= I couldn't wake up on time, so I gave up and just take a bath slowly. Actually I'm gonna go straight to campus, not taking a bath or wear make up, but I think, I won't be able to make it, so I missed it. Yeah, I always have trouble with getting up in time in the morning =_=" Sorry to say this but I REALLY can't get up on time at least someone wake me up u,u I went to my last soul training, it was fun just like the first day :D
So this day I just download database for my thesis, 1,5Gb =_= until now, it still downloading and still have 300Mb to go =_= ahh geez T_T
I just hope I didn't download the wrong data :|

That's what I done for these days, see u soon :*

Saturday, 21 July 2012

Turning Point

Here I come with another story of my life..
Yesterday was unforgettable day for me. Let's start from the first time I got up in the morning. There are Ped and Kev, my bro's friends. (my bro's age is 14, that makes him the oldest in the(?) gang) They always play with my bro in my house. Actually my parent's house so technically also my house *grin*. They are around 10-13 years old. So cute and lovely especially Kev. He is the true lady killer. You know what? He gave my sister who already married a box of chocolate and begging her to gave him some advice to get a girl's heart. =_= At the young age he already thinking about that??! Oh shame on me who already 22 and still never date anyone before *God please help me from this humiliation* And he said he already dated 3 girls before!! *such an unseen slap on my face*.

Not only Kev, but Ped who is smaller than Kev already have a girlfriend whose 2 years older than him :O Even it's only "cinta monyet" means not really true love but I still envy(?) them. hahaha So I try to tease them, and said, oh Kev you're so cute an stuff, and then he blushing and said he's not hahahaha. I'm having so much fun teasing them :D Yeah, having fun until they teased me -___-"

My mom said how about dating me to Kev and Ped. They looked confused and don't know how to really responded that offer. I just stay quiet and looked at them, watching their reactions which so funny to watch XD. And then Kev politely rejected with confused face on him. But this child, Ped, said, ah that's okay and I could be his spare girl. I gave him the "What the heck are you talking kid?!" look and he just giggles. Geez this kid =____=

But yeah after all I'm having fun with them, my bros, and my mother. We laughed a lot tat afternoon :) But I know when you have laughed a lot for one day, you must be crying later. And that's what happend to me and my mom.

Have I ever said that me and my family kinda into "supernatural" things? oh, no? Okay, now you know. So that night we called for our "grandpa" and talk a lot about what we want to know. So "he" keep answering us until we satisfied and then disappeared with taking over my bro (another bro of mine, he's already 27). Me, who responsible to transfer some energy to my bro (he could do some "supernatural" thing but need me to continue, well actually my energy to specific it). In that time, my bro's own guardian take over his body and keep talking something I don't really know, well what I know it's not our native language so I don't know -_- But my mom understand (looks likely). And she asked about my grandma who died not too long ago. That "shifu" told her something and than she began to cry. I can't do anything much besides hugging her that time, I just hope whatever the problem, she could go through it with a strong heart TT__TT

Then, my bro's acting wierd. He starts following my humming ._. I was humming  a Japanese song, and than he starts following me. That's weird. When I asked him what was he singing, he just said let's sing together... ._. Confused enough, yeah I let him do so. But my mom suddenly realized that's not really him, that's the old him right now and we need to call back the real him now or he will lose himself! Of course I try my best to call him yet he keep back to the old him from the other time. Until we can really make sure he was awake, we keep calling his name and he came back. >.<

So he started to blabbering about having a dream. It's actually a dream about his past life.. Believe or not, it's your right to choose. He said something about necklace, a gorgeous middle-aged woman, a younger woman, and about fighting some gang or stuff. I tried to ask him more, and I come to realize that was also my past life. With his story I came to know about my relationship with my mom. I cried without know what I was cried for. But when I knew, I cried like crazy. I wanted to hug my mom right away but that was forbidden. We actually cannot talk about the past life, but I can't help it. I wanted to say this. Maybe from the past life, this is what I want to say to her... THANK YOU SO MUCH.

I can't explain to you why I want to say that to my mom...because that's actually forbidden. But I can tell you what's in our life past was really unimaginable. Totally. I have a great debt with my mom from the past life that I can never be able to pay her back. But I'll try to make her happy and become an obedient child for her. That's the least I can do now...

That facts about my past life was my turning point. I'm not doing something bad anymore. Become a good kid and listen to her words.

So please, for you readers, do your best in this life, and never wasted it, because human's life will fly away like a blink of eye. Whatever happen in this life because what happened in the past so please everyone do your best ^_^

Monster out~

Friday, 20 July 2012

YunJae

Okay, now I will reveal my source of happiness lately. You know what? It's YunJae Couple. Yeah, I am an active YunJae Shipper. Right now, I'm totally obsessed, consumed, and supportive towards them.

First of all, for those who don't know what the hell is this YunJae, I'll do some introducing for you. Please read carefully with the health of your body and mind. hahaha :P

YunJae stands for Yunho and Jaejoong. Both of them were in the same group, DBSK/TVXQ/Dong Bang Shin Ki / Tohoshinki with 3 other member ( Yoochun, Junsu, Changmin ).
The picture below (from left to right) : Yunho, Yoochun, Jaejoong, Changmin, Junsu
But something happen ( Jaejoong,Yoochun, and Junsu filled a lawsuit against their former production house, SM Entertainment. So they left the company and make new group, JYJ in C-jes Entertainment. For the other 2, Yunho and Changmin, they choose to stay in SM and continue to run DBSK as a duo).
This is JYJ : Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu :*

They are Changmin and Yunho, DBSK-Homin :*

I am a newbie, but I learned quite fast about this. I already know about DBSK in my high school time, but not really interested at that time. But slowly, they make me fall in love with them. Before the separation (maybe around 2009) I hear their Japanese song, Why Did I Fall In Love With You?<< that's the tittle. It's so sweet yet painful song. I simply love Changmin at that time. But nor really into them. Until they separated (2010) I started to pay attention more to them, both JYJ or Homin. And then I watched Yoochun's drama, Sungkyungkwan Scandal. I fell in love with his dorky and playfull side :D And when I really into DBSK-JYJ, I love how Jaejoong acts and realize that Yunho so damn sexy when he is dancing and I find Junsu's voice so adorable. And suddenly I realize, ahhhh this is what a Boy Group should be. They have talents, excellent voices, looks, and popularity. The only one I regret was just that I'm to late to realize that. That's it. More than that, I just happy to know their songs :D Really makes my day these days :)

Enough for the introducing, let's talk about the main topic, shall we? :) About what? YunJae of course.
From the first time I saw this pair, I know something fishy about them. When I compare their acts from debut until 2009, there is something different about these two. When I saw old videos about DBSK like X-man or others, Yunho and Jaejoong not seem to be really close but they kinda force it, you know? it seems obvious those were just fan services. But after the incident ( Yunho got poisoned by antifans who gave him juice with super glue, damn that antifans =_=) Yunho and Jaejoong getting closer. From what I read, all DBSK member were so upset but Jaejoong was the most furious of all. He even cursed that antifans. Later, that antifans was just a teenager and Yunho didn't want to make the case worse so he tell the police to release the boy ( what a kind hearted man :")

Nah, rumor has been spread since that incident that Yunho and Jaejoong going out. Well I don't actually believe it in one shot, but I search for evidence. So I surf the Youtube like crazy and see so many video about YunJae (hooraayy). I look at those videos almost every night. And I must admit, there's something going on these two (Yunjae ofc).

From those videos, random facts about DBSK/Yunjae related, I come to know that Jaejoong like to do skinship with all of his members and he REALLY do that skinship even to Changmin who hates skinship with men. But something different when he make skinship with Yunho. You could take a look at this picture.
This compilation picture(?) are pictures from MKMF 2008. DBSK wins something and they hug each other. That doesn't really matter, but when Yunho release Jaejoong from his hug, you can see how Jaejoong's face,he WAS smiling a bit with a shy look and then pretend nothing happened. Why? Yunho looks so calm but Jaejoong looks shy (in my brain and mind eyes). Well you should check the video to see it with better vision.

There were so many videos about them that I watched, and I know what I'm talking right now. I THINK YUNJAE IS REAL. At least that time being. As for now, they are no longer in same group. Each of them busy with their schedule. I don't know if they are dating. I just hope them to get back in one group. It's really upset me to see them separated like this. I don't mind waiting, but please not too long. It's been 3 years (already? uh dunno the real time they separated).

Ah, anyway, even if they are not real, at least for me, YUNJAE IS REAL :D AKTF~ so please don't argue with me, okay? I'm a Fujoshi (people who love yaoi story / boyxboy) so, even you try to kill me to change my mind, it just won't work ^_^ (kidding, don't kill me, I still love my life kekeke~)

Nah, maybe next time I'll post more about this, but for now, I have to sleep, my head hurts like hell +_+ Good night everyone~ Annyeong~

Wednesday, 18 July 2012

Routine

Hello again..
Finally I come back with the second post~ not really interesting tough.
Today just like the other day, nice and slow. Ah, today I went to the bank in the afternoon, there is a teller who is one of my primary school friend. She WORK there! Make me so envious!! I haven't graduate yet she already work there for a month. Geez, now I'm totally beat up.

When I was a little child, I was so confident that I will get to work first than my other friend, but now, seeing the reality make me so damn dumb back then. Nothing I can do right now. I'm just a hopeless girl who obsessed with something that I can't even get to see it live. Crap. Yeah, my daily routine is crap. I just think that maybe it can't get any worse but yeah, it got worse every day.

Every day, I wake up 11 P.M. A typical lazy girl mid 22. What else can be more depressing?? I can't even cook my meal, I don't really care about what dress I use. I don't really into housekeeping. What I know just play and play. Maybe I'm taking revenge right now for what I didn't received back then. The happiness from having fun with my friends, shopping, singing, and the most of all, trying any food I like. hahahahaha~

Ah, and yesterday I went to a dead's grandma of my sister's friend. She was 95 years old. I just simply hope that I can make that number into my own old. (you know what I mean?) and then I saw him!! My sister's friend! Okay, he was actually pursue my sister back when they were still in high school. The old him, seem so sick(because he was so thin and lifeless) :P. But now, he is so cute(?) and have a nice smile~ I kinda like it actually. hahaha~ He looks like, hm, a korean guy named Park YooHwan. He REALLY do look like him. Trust me, my eyes never lies. :D Here's photo of the guy I mean, Park YooHwan. My sister's friend really looks like him (envy). :D

Nah, that's enough for today, I got other things to do~ Ja nee~:*

Friday, 13 July 2012

Angry....maybe? Shit!

Shit!
That's my holy word for today.
I'm not able to graduate with my friends. Shit! (again)
huh... but I guess that's my own foul. Too much unnecessary thing I've work on these days, and this is the real reason why I can't finish my lovely shit(again) thesis. I really like this shit word now, ow maybe I need to be friends with it now :O Okay forget about it.
My lovely shit (again) thesis about authentication method and I need to mastered a specific program to get through those.

I don't know how to tell my mother about this. She might be screaming so damn loud to me if she find out about this. Or maybe she gets so sad because of this thesis (in my nationality language, thesis can be called as "Skripshit!!!", okay don't trust me haha). Well, I'm kinda down these days, don't really know what to do..

Starting today, I'm going to leave at least one post about my day, so internet, please accept me and my shitty talk right here. Because I'm not really good at English maybe I've made some mistakes here and there, well shit (again).

Ah, and one more thing, you can leave some comment and called me MONSTER (this is my nickname right now).

Now, byebye~:*