Believe..

Today I'm gonna tell you something..
Yesterday my parents called me to come to their room. So I did it.
There, they told me something. Something that makes me confused.
They asked me about my husband. Yeah, about him..They said that he has changed since last time.
And about my brother's dream that told him about my husband true intention of marrying me. I don't know whether that's true or not. I question this my self. Didn't they, my parents, the one who wanted me to marry him in the first place and now when I'm quite in love with him, you came and asked me about this. I am confused.

I wanna trust my husband, but I can't really tell what's the meaning behind all this.
I'm trying to stay calm and said that, Let's see it then.
Actually I do think there's something wrong with my husband. He becomes a bit arrogant nowadays. And I hate it. Should I told him about him about this? Or just be quiet and not saying anything?

I guess the best to do is to talk about this with him when he is in good mood. Yeah, let just do that.
Hope for the best.

Missed, Again.

I missed again.and again.
It's all my fault and I'm stressed over it.
What did I miss?
My holy shit graduation. yet. again.
sigh.
Never across in my mind that I will take this much time to finish this shit final task. So depressing.
I let my man down, my mother, father, sister. Yeah, in short all people around me who expected me to be a fresh graduate soon.
Don't really know how to talk about it with my mom, I'm pretty sure she is not upset, but disappointed, yeah. She really hopes that I graduate soon.
And then again, I never take it seriously. I've missed this graduation twice. And I don't hope for the third!!! :(

Oh Please, God gimme more strength, so I can  make it for this year graduation. Please. Please. Pretty please~~~~~ Luv U so much  God.

God Bless Me. My soul. My family. And My friends. *kiss*

Married

it's been long time since last time I post something here..
well, now that I'm quite busy with random things, let's make this easier..
I am married now.
with the man I told you  before, yeah that man.
I don't know how, but I just get married last 2 November. it's been a busy day for me ofc.
never ever in my dream that I would get married so young, 21 years old. geez.
life's so full of surprise.
maybe you will think that I'm pregnant or something, but nope. I was totally a virgin. and never had sex before marriage. so yeah, now I know what's that sex mean. as I expected, I enjoy it. LOL.
I don't know how to tell you about the details, but yeah, something happened and I should marry my man as soon as possible or else, there will be something huge disaster or something like that, don't really know what that's called. so, this is it. I'm a married woman now.
congrats me anyway :P LOL joking.
a week before 2 November which mean 26 September, we(me,my fams,him,and his fams) held a small ceremony. His mother give me a ring. And his father? he is such a sweet man, not really talking too much but I like him personally.
I just don't know what my parents think about that time..maybe I'm to ignorant. But I'd like to know now..

Okay, time to go, my husband coming :P

Me and my life

These days I've been so damn busy with anything beside doing my damn thesis =,=
Nice isn't it? I've been so depressed lately because some matters.
I've got to spend more time with my hunny, oh yeah now I called him my hunny.
World and life sure is funny. I never thought that I could ever called him hunny. Not in my pretty little shitty life. But now I am. I do call him like that. He seems generous towards me, so why don't give him a try. That's what I thought. And guess what? He already kissed me in the night that we are officially going out, LOL
I don't know how to react so I just give him my "what the heck was that" look to him which he gave me another light kiss. Great! That simple kiss make me freeze =_=
So miserable. I think I wanna go to another planet please.
That was my first kiss. My very first kiss in my 21 years of life. Nice. Memorable. Laughable.
Now everything is change. My world and him become one. I jump into his life, and so does him. I don't have any confident at first, but yeah, later step by step I learn something about him. That he's nice, innocent. Yes so innocent. Beside him, I feel that I'm so damn evil. =.=
He really gives his best at everything he done. That's what make him attractive for me. Yeah at least for me. And now my heart has been connected with him (?) or whatever you called it. I love him now. I don't know that there would be this kind of love.

Now I know, nothing impossible in love. Nothing. Everything is possible. So the impossible(ness) also exist. Do you get it? No? Okay go brush your teeth and get back to sleep.

That's it~Bye~^^

Happy Birthday Potter and Rowling~

Almost forget!!
Today is Harry Potter and J.K.Rowling's birthday~~~ yeeeyyyyy XD
Happy Birthday Harry Potter~ Thanks for coming into my life and make it great! I'll never forget you and your story! Love you always~ *Potterheads mode on* >.<
Happy Birthday to J.K.Rowling, the number one author come in my mind. She is so great! Without her, no Harry Potter and I won't even know about magical things like in her books! She's amazing~ love you so Rowling~ keep rockin~XD

Thunder bold right in front of my face..

It's been days ago..but I can't settle down my feelings...
(days ago)
My mom screaming, so I bragging in to her room and find her crying like crazy with my father looked so worried and desperate to beg her to be quiet. Confused, yes. Me too. I keep thinking what might happen. Well, shortly, my mom told me, that my destined(?) man was my big bro. ( me and my big bro isn't really siblings, we're friends who turn out to be siblings and now become lovers(?)) oh please, I got electric shock! How wouldn't??!! Shittt!!! I've never dated anyone before and now you told me that my big bro is my destined man?! What The???!! Oh come on!! I'm still young. I don't even think about marriage! How could?! Damn! I lost words!t
I keep thinking, why?why?why?Why? Why it has to be me? why? I want to fall in love with someone else! not with a man who already fall in love with another woman! What make it worse? that other woman was my big sister TT____TT I don't know what I did wrong in the past, but I can't accept it. Okay my brain's trying to accept but my hearts, my attitude, all of me reject it! How could I have lovers relationship with him??!! he is my bro, for God sake! (at least I think of him that way). But as I saw him, he's trying his best to get closer to me in romantic way, which really makes me depressed T_T Oh God please, help me,what to do??!! now he's calling TT__TT Okay, now he's off... fyuuuhhh TT__TT what to do??? eottoke??! huweee
please someoneee help me out of here :"( sob sob sob

These Funny 3 Days :)

Okay I'm gonna post all things I've done for these 3 days from Monday until Wednesday ^^
Monday like the other day, I get up, eat something, watch tv, online, chit chat with my older sister who already had a baby :D At night I went to temple and get the first day of soul training to make us understand more about moral and we played so many games. Actually child-games that surprisingly so fun XD. We laugh so hard because of that haha...

The second day, Tuesday, I went to campus to get soft skill training early in the morning, ended up until lunch time, tired and so dead bored -_- And I wear a SKIRT, oh please =__= I don't even know when was the last time I used one -,-" But I love dress yeeeyy \\(^O^)// weird huh? okay skip that part. Nah, I went to my friends rent-house and have a great chit chat with them, and eat :D but not all of them eat, some were fasting. You know fasting? no? okay go google it now. I supposed to get my ass home at least 5 in the evening, but I arrived at 6 -_- so I miss my chance to go to my second day of soul training :( I end up watching tv and online. But my mom said she can't take my sister to her home, so I was taking her home, late in the night with a motorbike LOL. Ah I forgot, there's two strange things happen. First, my bathroom's door locked from inside, but none in there -_- and second, my big bro said he got 2 miscall from me around 3 PM, but when I check my log, I don't see any of dialed call to him from my phone and yeah, it successfully make me chill =_=

And today, Wednesday. I missed my second soft skill training =_= I couldn't wake up on time, so I gave up and just take a bath slowly. Actually I'm gonna go straight to campus, not taking a bath or wear make up, but I think, I won't be able to make it, so I missed it. Yeah, I always have trouble with getting up in time in the morning =_=" Sorry to say this but I REALLY can't get up on time at least someone wake me up u,u I went to my last soul training, it was fun just like the first day :D
So this day I just download database for my thesis, 1,5Gb =_= until now, it still downloading and still have 300Mb to go =_= ahh geez T_T
I just hope I didn't download the wrong data :|

That's what I done for these days, see u soon :*